Sunday, November 6, 2016

A Meeting

Dana
I know I called you here but actually, I didn't want to come here, I want to... shit... I really don't want to put it in words because it's going to sound so ridiculous. (puffs at cigarette) I wanted to go have sex with someone, just not my husband.

K
So, you should, if it's something that you really want.

Dana
No, I don't want to cheat on my husband. I've been having sex with him for years now, it's great, it's good, I love him, but it's completely automatic, it's like, (puffs at cigarette), it's like breathing. But I don't want to cheat, I love him and he's my life. I'd like to have sex with a... faceless man. A man who isn't a man, then I'd feel good and it wouldn't make me feel bad (puffs at cigarette). The problem is... I don't have orgasms anymore with my husband, maybe once a month, maybe. But what I'm worried about is what if the faceless man gives me an orgasm, what if I fall in love with the faceless man, what then? I'd have nothing to hold on to. I'd be in love with an idea. Then I'd be all back where I started. Oh no, I'm not going back to how it was 9 years ago, not after that thing. No, no, I'll just smoke one more cigarette and I'll go back to my man, and we'll have sex (smiles) again... (puffs at cigarette).